hi Everybody, hope you are all doing fine (well as good as it can be with MC). Just writing this email to say hi. I have been reading lately but not posting.
@ant (yes the @ you also see it on facebook and in twitter) nice to hear from you, as was wondering how you were doing and how things were going, I am sorry about your mother, dutch expression is "getting old is great, but being old is not always that easy". I hope they will take good care of her in the home where she is now.
@polly, I am so sorry about your brother, I totally agree with you that loosing a sibling comes closer than loosing a parent, I have (thanks god) not lost one of them, but I don't know my sister is, yes my sister, she is my whole life, we shared everything our whole childhood, for me she is the closest what I have (she comes before my parents). So I am so sorry for your loss and that he did not recover. Really sad to read.
@lesly, congrats with your new grandchild (If I remember it well close to me in Israel), so when are you going to visit him/her? Because then we have to meet too.
Well now about me, my bowels are behaving horrible. I was off medication for a second time for about two to three weeks, and it was going, not perfect but going. But I got a bit looser with food, and Friday I checked my finances (a disaster at the moment, because my house is not selling) and it was even worse than I expected. And again it felt like falling through the bottom of existence and if that happens the MC is back. So back on medication and the diet of rice/fish/meet/bananas and tea. I recover well. But it looks like I still the need the medication, I hope one every other day will do.
I have a job offer, my first one here, it is one in Petra, running a travel agency, one that is just started, it is bookings and stuff, but also marketing, PR, more or less everything. It sounds nice, but well saying I want to move to Petra and actually making the step...for now I would prefer being half the week there and half the week here (petra - Amman). I have not said yes or no, going there this week to take a look where I would be working, my place to stay there etc.
The hesitation is because finally after 1,5 years (yes that long I have been here already) I finally start really liking my life in Amman. This week I have been to two gathering of international people, in two weeks I had two great nights. Nice people, nice conversation. Life is really changing. Of course the city is not different, the people are not different than a year ago, I am different. Because that is my best news. Ever since my MC started (almost three years ago) I have never felt my old self again, as if my appetite for life got out of my body when the MC got in. Of course I have tried to fight it, do things, go out, but it never works. But this weeks two great nights, that means something really is changing inside me. But probably it will be three steps forward one or two steps back.
My house still not sold yet, but a friend moves in this weekend (also paying some rent) so at least some of that costs are covered now. The next step now is (finally) find a job than hopefully also my bank account will go up again. Because really if I look at my situation at the moment I really wonder how on earth have I let it come this far. Maybe it was even a mild depression I don't know. Of course many voices go, I should have done this or should have done that, useless of course.
well long story again wishing everyone the best
love
harma
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"As the sense of identity shifts from the imaginary person to your real being as presence awareness, the life of suffering dissolves like mist before the rising sun"
Harma,
I am glad you are recovering via diet and very little meds. The good thing is you CAN take control and get it into order.
I am also glad life in Amman is improving. It's nice you have 2 places you like, and can split time between them.
How are you going to work if you are half the week in Amman and half in Petra? Or would finding a job in Amman keep you there, with excursions to Petra on holidays and weekends?
I know the worry about money. I am waiting for news about my pension. If I get it I can heave a sigh of relief. It's very fixed, but with care it's livable. I have been doing it since 2003, and though it gets harder year by year, I still can do it.
If I DON'T get it - well, disaster. Because there is nothing I can do to increase my income, so hold thumbs for me, and I will for you too. Come to think of it, my current flare might be stress based, rather than food.
Yes, my new grandson is in Israel, and I want to go so badly. Yes, when I do we MUST meet!
I am glad you are recovering via diet and very little meds. The good thing is you CAN take control and get it into order.
I am also glad life in Amman is improving. It's nice you have 2 places you like, and can split time between them.
How are you going to work if you are half the week in Amman and half in Petra? Or would finding a job in Amman keep you there, with excursions to Petra on holidays and weekends?
I know the worry about money. I am waiting for news about my pension. If I get it I can heave a sigh of relief. It's very fixed, but with care it's livable. I have been doing it since 2003, and though it gets harder year by year, I still can do it.
If I DON'T get it - well, disaster. Because there is nothing I can do to increase my income, so hold thumbs for me, and I will for you too. Come to think of it, my current flare might be stress based, rather than food.
Yes, my new grandson is in Israel, and I want to go so badly. Yes, when I do we MUST meet!
Harma,
It so good to hear from you. Decisions, decisions!! I'm sure you will make the one that is best for you.
Ever since my MC started (almost three years ago) I have never felt my old self again, as if my appetite for life got out of my body when the MC got in.
Isn't that the truth!!
Keep us informed, your life if so interesting. I can't even imagine moving to a foreign country, you are brave. Although, I would love spending several weeks or months in France. That is where our families originated.
Nancy
It so good to hear from you. Decisions, decisions!! I'm sure you will make the one that is best for you.
Ever since my MC started (almost three years ago) I have never felt my old self again, as if my appetite for life got out of my body when the MC got in.
Isn't that the truth!!
Keep us informed, your life if so interesting. I can't even imagine moving to a foreign country, you are brave. Although, I would love spending several weeks or months in France. That is where our families originated.
Nancy
Hi Harma,
Yes, MC changes us, no doubt about that. Some of the changes are bad, and some are good, but we have to make the most of them, and move on.
Thanks for the update. I hope that everything works out well for you.
Love,
Tex
Yes, MC changes us, no doubt about that. Some of the changes are bad, and some are good, but we have to make the most of them, and move on.
Thanks for the update. I hope that everything works out well for you.
Love,
Tex
It is suspected that some of the hardest material known to science can be found in the skulls of GI specialists who insist that diet has nothing to do with the treatment of microscopic colitis.
Dear Harma,
Glad you are getting some social life and I hope you will also soon get the finances back. When MC hits people's lives, it also hits the bank balance...
Dear Lesley,
My fingers are crossed for your pension.
Love ant
Glad you are getting some social life and I hope you will also soon get the finances back. When MC hits people's lives, it also hits the bank balance...
Dear Lesley,
My fingers are crossed for your pension.
Love ant
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