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Thought I would share my dark secret of the day. I took two Immodium plus yesterday and a half a tab this morning. Doesn't sound like a big deal right? Well I haven't taken any drugs for my CC since I was diagnosed. I take that back, I did the pepto treatment for two weeks until I couldn't tolerate the side effects while I was getting all the gluten out of my diet. I work at a busy hospital and I just wanted to drink my califia farms iced coffee and have some dark chocolate and honey. I wanted my comforts and wanted them without the 4-6 trips to the potty leaving me frazzled and empty. I'm not even sure those are the suspects since I've tolerated them in the past. Point is I know there is an obvious irritant in something that I'm eating and I do not have the will or mental fortitude right now to deal with it. The reason I'm sharing this is because we all need to know that everyone is not perfect and we have different ways in dealing with our path to wellness. Right now I'm beating myself up knowing this is not the way to deal with healing your gut and you know better dummy! I do have to say that taking the immodium gave me instant relief I haven't felt in a long time. Can't make this a habit! And then the whole mental aspect of even if you do follow a strict elimination diet, its not a promise. What about infection, hormonal disruption, parisites, low enzyme and stomach acid production, lifestyle and environmental factors? OH MY! Our minds are not equiped to deal with all of these laid out before us at once. Knowing this is a 3-5 year journey to health (if your lucky) is little daunting to say the least. Sorry got off on a tangent. Hopefully soon I'll be ready to put on my engineer's hat and get down to serious work and most importantly trusting in myself because at the end of the day that is all we really have.

p.s. We also have our pain....whether physical or mental or both. That is actually a very important tool we all have within us. It gets us to that next level. Not what we want but lets face it. It is a very powerful catalyst!
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We are only human if we were perfect we would not have this blasted MC hang in there. I miss my foods so badly but I am trying hard to heal my gut.

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Vanessa,

Welcome to the club. You are definitely one of the family. :wink: As the saying goes, nothing irritates those of us who are perfect, as much as others who claim to be. :lol:

MC is a cruel taskmaster, and we each have to develop our own strategies that allow us to live with it. One good thing is that as we get farther down the path, we get better and better at controlling it, and anticipating problems, and that makes the job much easier. Eventually it becomes second nature.

Imodium is good stuff. It's probably the safest med we can take when we need a little help, and it can be surprisingly effective.

And I agree with you that pain and adversity are never any fun, but they do bring out our creativeness, and they help us to truly appreciate some of the little things in life that we would overlook without them, such as how nice life can be once we get past the pain and adversity.

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It is suspected that some of the hardest material known to science can be found in the skulls of GI specialists who insist that diet has nothing to do with the treatment of microscopic colitis.
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Vanessa
the mental side of sticking to our strict eating plan is pretty full on....

trusting yourself, and getting to know your body is worth it... having a safe eating plan and knowing what your limits are so far as risking contamination or 'sometimes' foods. I can assure you it gets easier, less intense.....

hang in there....
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I realized recently that I CAN take Imodium again. Before dx and restrictive diet I ate them like candy and still didn't stop WD. My pcp told me it was nearly impossible to OD on Imodium (think it's 200+).
After dx and diet it stopped the D but made me feel bloated and 'stopped up' more painful than D. Now I can take it again if I have D.
In my case this is caused by stress which I try to avoid, but am not always successful.
I haven't knowingly put anything in my mouth to cause it, soy might have snuck in if it wasn't on the label of something I ate, also gluten-free doesn't mean it's so.
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Don't beat yourself up too much because you aren't alone. I've done it on more tban one occassion then wonder what the heck was the matter with me. :lol: You will get back on track and have been reminded that MC doesn't really ever go away. Keep looking forward.
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None of us is perfect and we all have our own time frame to healing. At least you are still on this forum. I think that some newbies drop off this site quickly because what needs to be done to heal, is too overwhelming. Now that I am three years post dx, I cheat more now than ever! Do I know that being strict is the way to keep inflammation down? Absolutely! But life is meant to be enjoyed, so If I can get away with some See's ( West Coast chocolates) here and there, I go for it. Perfect? no. Happier? yep!

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PS, but of course I couldn't cheat like I do if I didn't do the hard work for the first year :)
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Thanks for the kind words and constant encouragement. And Leah I'm thinking lovely healing thoughts for a fast and easy recovery after your surgery....your one tough gluten free cookie! :wink:
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Ha ha ha. Thanks Vanessa. Although it was a tough day of surgery and night, I am healing fast and walked 1 1/2 miles yesterday!
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