Well, it isnt so-----
Spoke with Lynn a few minutes ago---and this is the REAL KAIT and feelings--
Kait has NOT been positive
Kait has told Lynn---she wishes she was DEAD
Kait also has said---this is NO life
Kait told Lynn--she often thought of SUICIDE and when Lynn asked why she never did---
Kait said---cus I was afraid---I thought it might *hurt* and I didnt want to be condemned to HELL---and I thought of my family
Kait has been very miserable but she put up a GREAT ACT for all--
Lynn and Kait talk and Lynn told me this morning that she has known Kaits feelings for a very long time but didnt want to say anything to us--
Things may work out---and there still could be mal-functions!!!
She certainly cant go running to Phoenix---but this will be an issue that will have to be decided on--
I CAN understand---but how MUCH of this we didnt see--!!!!!!!!!!
I am so ?-----ya know I cant even think of a word to Xpress how SCARED I am--I hear Kait saying----*doing OK grams but head still hurts* and INSIDE she was suffering so much--not only with pain but with the thoughts of DOING AWAY with herself/and how she has missed so much of living---
This Neuro has done things differently--and the stitches will be removed within a week or so--
*H* was/is a big screw up-----I am assuming that Reecate will fax *H* as to what has been done---
So now we leave to see Kris play the piano---
I have to say I am *numb*
I wanna *scream*
I wanna smash everything thats in my way
I hate that Harter~~~~~~~
thank U all that have read this about our Kait~~~
Barbara
