I HAVE A QUESTION???

barbaranoela · Post by **barbaranoela** » Mon Apr 17, 2006 6:00 am

This might sound dumb BUT----can anyone tell me WHY I should be getting MORE depressed as each day passes????

I dont know whats wrong with me----nothing TRAGIC going on---the same ole stuff but I appear to be getting *sucked* into that *black-hole* once again???? and I cant figure it out--

Thanks for any kinda *maybe's*

luve Barbara

hazel · Post by **hazel** » Mon Apr 17, 2006 6:43 am

I was just reading an article in the paper this morning about depression and it said one in five people in our area have been told by a health professional that they are surrering from depression. It wasn't a very long article
http://news.enquirer.com/apps/pbcs.dll/ ... /604170326
but in the little gray box the data looks to me like depression is related to stress. You've been having a little bit of stress!

barbaranoela · Post by **barbaranoela** » Mon Apr 17, 2006 7:21 am

Kathy----thanks for replying---and the article was very interesting--

Its such an awful thing to feel like I am---and yet I dont seem to know WHY?? That could drive one nutz!!!

I sorta figured that I had my STRESS under control but appears it is CONTROLLING me---I gather my BRAIN isnt believeing that things will be OK~~~
Its like I want to be in a far away land----with no-one around me---

Was

all morning and poor Lou is trying so hard to lift my spirits~~~

It still is hard for me to believe that STRESS can make me feel this way--
Well I see Lois next week and perhaps she can help me sort issues---

Thank U so very much Kathy---
luve Barbara

and I have to be truthful in what I am going to say-----I didnt want to go and spend Easter Sunday with Lynn, Kait and Kris!!!!
I didnt want to be with them!!!!!

starfire · Post by **starfire** » Mon Apr 17, 2006 7:47 am

Barbara, don't feel bad about not wanting to be around Lynn, Kait and Kris. Your subconcious was probably telling you that you just can't handle any more stress right now, and as much as you love all of them it would have been more stress, I'm sure. Just feeling helpless about the situation is stress, and I know you've been on an emotional roller coaster for such a long time, which is VERY stressful.

I believe you are suffering now from the letdown of the latest events regarding Kait. We all had such high hopes regarding the new doctor......

I believe you WILL bounce back, dear lady. You have already proven yourself to be a very resiliant personality.

Shirley

Post by **tex** » Mon Apr 17, 2006 7:55 am

Barbara,

You are feeling more depressed, because depression is self-perpetuating. It changes your body chemistry so that it's easier for your mood to shift even more toward depression. It's tough to break out of the cycle, once you are in it.

Thinking positive thoughts can help--remember happy times, and happy places. Think about people who make you feel happy and secure. Recall the happiest times of your life, and replay the details in your mind.

Exercise helps, because it makes you concentrate on something other than the negative thoughts that are causing you to feel depressed, and it helps your body to create more seratonin, which will help to lift you spirits.

Eat some chocolate. Chocolate contains phenylethylamine and seratonin, both of which are mood lifting agents found naturally in the human brain.

And remember, love is all around us. It's a beautiful day, and we live in a wonderful world.

And never forget,

We luve ya, Mrs. Columbo,

Wayne

barbaranoela · Post by **barbaranoela** » Mon Apr 17, 2006 8:14 am

Thank U--thank U---I need all the help I can *hear*

SHIRLEY---thats the point----I DIDNT feel bad as not wanting to spend the day with my daughter and grandaughters---
I HATED it----
Lynn and Kait are going to this seminar,Memorial weekend, and without asking if Lou and I are doing anything----we are designated to have Kristyn----
Then sometimes in June, Lynn is taking Kristyn away for a few dyaz and AGAIN we are designated to care for Kait---Im afraid if something goes wrong---as what to do---rush her to the city---
So U see---this is part of my *sinking*-- projecting months ahead and getting angry~~~

GALAHAD---I would luve to close my eyes and see myself in the happy dayz---with happy friends---having laughs---but I cant FIND those places anymore----I seem to be lost in a fog---
Those that were so very close to me are all gone----I dont mean Lou isnt special ---
I miss my brother and 2 of my galfriends---all passing so young--these 3 peoples *lit* up my life----
Well enuf of being morbid---I just had to get this all out----
Yes, tis a beautiful day----the sun is shinning and somehow I shall find the way into it----

thank U all---
I luve U all---
Barbara

Post by **tex** » Mon Apr 17, 2006 12:01 pm

Barbara,

Please don't worry about the future, 'cause no one knows what the future will bring, anyway. Live life one day at a time, and the future will take care of itself.

If "babysitting" for Lynn is such a big issue that it's ruining your health, then tell Lynn that you just can't do it any more.

Luve,
Wayne

annie oakley · Post by **annie oakley** » Mon Apr 17, 2006 6:04 pm

Barbara.....please feel better...you are so important to us all here. :bigbighug:

Love Oma

celia · Post by **celia** » Tue Apr 18, 2006 3:38 am

Barbara,

You *light* up our lives!

Blue moods have been one of my symptoms when I eat the wrong food. It just descends, and so I can appreciate how you might feel --- stuck in a hole and not able to find the happy memories or places for the moment. At the same time, there's a part of me that can look at it more objectively, but I still can't release my self in those moments. For me, it's always like a biochemical event.

I know it's tough right now, but I trust that you will find your way through this. You are an amazing person!

Celia

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