I at first didn't join, because I was living out west, didn't know anyone there and was living with a disease that I didn't understand and didn't get any information from the doctor who diagnosed it because he was too overworked and he also lived in the place that I had just moved from. But I have always been scared of attaching to anyone, as in my history I had lost everyone that I was close to, so why put myself through it again. BUT Sally wouldn't let me stay all by myself, and she wrote me an email and said to please, please join. And so I did. And I was not only helped through the awfulness of living with a horrible person, I was also given support when I got really, really sick. They also cheered me on when I finally left that awful person, and when I got my own apartment, for the very first time in my life and it goes on. And when things started to wrong on that board, I was really, really scared that it was happening all over again, and I know I sound like a big, big suck, but I kept going back to that board and looking for hours for posts from the people I knew....and one by one I didn't see them anymore, and I didn't know what to do. My instinct told me to preserve myself, and go back into my shell..............but I missed the raport (sp) that was there when I first joined, I think it was 83 members at the time. So when I got the email from Polly, it was like OMG, I have to get there and say hello and tell them I am still around and I missed them all. Because I really missed them all, and my puter was sick during some of that time and boy oh boy, I got pretty down at times. But its hard to walk alone when you are sick allot, and I have a hard time trusting people because of things that have happened to me. And I am so glad to be back, and I think that is another reason my posts got to be less and less on the other board too. It was not feeling the same. And I for one, just love the new board here. It has allot of things that help when you have memory problems too. Like the little email messages that you get from the last place you posted to. Laugh if you will, but sometimes, (actually lots of times) I forgot that I posted a reply. And I did it once on here to Gaea's posting, I went back and seen that I left her two messages, ha ha, I didn't see the first one I posted, duh. Sometimes I wonder about myself, others must wonder too!
But these are all the reasons I joined, the first board started me off, and this one is keeping me going.
Lots of Gentle hugs
Wendy
