Jean,
I'm so sorry about your bird! I lost a wonderful little budgie 9 yrs ago, b/c I had him outside with the cage top off. A bug zapper scared him, and off he went.
He had his wings trimmed, but there was one long flight feather that I didn't notice. It was at dusk, and we looked all night for him. We put up fliers and notice in the paper. We got several calls, but none were my baby. Never found him.
I was so depressed that I stayed in bed for a week, lost five pounds and still am not over it. The guilt is horrible, I still can't look at his picture or his little toy ball. I am beginning to think there is something wrong with me. I had had some wine, or I would have been more aware of the bug zapper. It has been 9 yrs and I still cry about him.
I don't think I will ever get over this guilt, he was so special, followed me everywhere, and said at least 100 words and phrases. I just can't get over this. I think I need a grief counselor.
One good thing happened though...One of the calls we got, was to someone's house, where another budgie had flown down on the daughters head. I gave them my cage and toys for this little bird and he got a nice home with one of their neighbors.
I went out and bought a white capped pionus parrot. He is wonderful, but he likes my sig. other better than me. He is very tall, maybe that is why, or maybe Sam (my bird) is a she? He has a great vocabulary and loves people food. I love him to death, but I still miss my little butterhead.
Love, KathyP
