Erica,
Like Jari and Lilja, I certainly understand your feelings (I've felt the same way — probably most of us have had that experience), but probably your step dad was just trying to be helpful and he was just being sincere in the best way he knew. I've been dealing with a very restricted diet for over 13 years now, and one thing I have learned is that they eventually learn to understand that I am serious about my diet, and they understand why I have to be careful about my diet, and they don't seem to hold any of that against me, but I doubt that they will ever figure out how to be comfortable around me at mealtime, nor will they ever be comfortable discussing my food requirements. Why? Because I am so radically different from everyone else they know. Because of that they have no precedent nor any reference for learning how to act around someone like me.
And of course the fact that they're so uncomfortable subconsciously makes us uncomfortable. But we have to learn to overcome that, because they really don't mean to hurt us — they're just frustrated because they truly don't know how to help us, either. They want to help us, but they don't know how. And that can cause them to say things that may not sound to us the way that they intended. And like them, early on this communication issue can lead to misunderstandings and even resentment, because we're still sensitive about our condition and the way that no one seems to understand us. Lemme tell you a little story about sensitivities and the unrealistic hostile feelings that they can lead to. I hope that this will cheer you up a bit.
This is a true story that happened to several of my neighbors many years ago, but I consider it to be a very enlightening story as long as it doesn't offend anyone. These guys were all farmers and they had a deer hunting lease on a ranch roughly a hundred miles west of here. In Texas there is very little public land, so anyone who wants to hunt and is not a landowner is pretty much forced to either have close relatives who own a ranch and who will allow him or her to hunt, or they have to lease hunting rights on private land, and hunting rights are not cheap, mostly because the hunting is so much better on private land, and the landowner typically (though not always) furnishes a good camp house, utilities, etc.
These men had a weekend of hunting and relaxation planned, so the night before, they got together at a local beer joint to make the final plans, and after they drank enough to loosen up a bit, one of them decided to invite one of their drinking buddies (who had a reputation as an outstanding camp cook, but who also just happened to be an alcoholic) to come with them on their trip to do all the cooking so that they could concentrate on their deer hunting and their card playing and drinking beer.
But the next morning as they were packing to leave (and the alcohol was out of their system), the gravity of the situation began to weigh heavily on their shoulders. The tough old rancher who owned the land where they hunted was extremely strict about enforcing certain rules while on the ranch. Everyone knew that one violation of any rule would result in every last one of them immediately being ordered to leave the ranch and never come back. That probably seemed like a fate worse than death to these guys because the ranch not only had some of the best hunting around, but decent hunting leases in the area were almost impossible to find, especially at the reasonable rates that they were paying. They had been hunting there for many years, and they certainly did not want to give up the lease. They got along quite well with the rancher even though he was an ornery old cuss who always seemed to have a chip on his shoulder, by being as polite and well-mannered as choir boys whenever the rancher was around.
But the old rancher had one physical defect — he had one glass eye. And for some reason or other he was extremely sensitive about it and they all knew that he would fly into a rage if anyone ever mentioned it or even looked cross-eyed at it. So the absolute drop-dead rule on the ranch was to never, ever mention that glass eye while the rancher was within hearing range.
I don't know if this was actually his name or a nickname, but everyone called their alcoholic guest Noie. At first they thought that maybe he wouldn't notice the rancher's glass eye, so they had nothing to worry about. But the problem with that was that the glass eye was not a very good match for the rancher's good eye, so it was pretty much impossible to overlook, even for a drunk. And Noie stayed drunk so much of the time that this was his normal mode of operation and he always seemed to be surprisingly alert, so on the drive out to the ranch they warned him that the rancher had a glass eye that he was extremely sensitive about. And they also warned him that no matter what else he did for the rest of his life, he should never, ever say one word about it or stare at it or anything else, because they would all be thrown off the ranch if he made that mistake.
They were fairly confident that this warning would do the trick, because Noie had lost an eye in WWII, so he had a glass eye himself. He had a habit of looking someone straight in the eye and squinting whenever he wanted to make an important point. So after they finished lecturing him about not mentioning the rancher's glass eye under any circumstances, he looked them straight in the eye, squinted, and snarled in his gravely voice, "You don't have to worry about me".
When they arrived at the camp, they set about unloading the groceries and beer, and getting everything in order. It didn't take long before the door opened and in walked the old rancher. After a round of greetings and handshaking, one of them introduced their guest to the rancher and told him that he had just come along to do the cooking, so he would be staying in camp and not doing any hunting. The rancher nodded and said, "That's fine". And then he turned and looked at Noie. And Noie looked at him. And before anyone could say anything else, Noie squinted and stared at that glass eye and blurted out in his gravely voice, "You're a one-eyed sumbich aintchu."
Suddenly the room was deathly quiet. No one even dared to breathe. They stared in helpless disbelief at the rancher's face, slack-jawed and desperately searching for a clue as to what was going to happen next. Noie continued to squint at the rancher's glass eye and the old rancher glared back at Noie, without saying a word. Then after a few seconds that seemed like an eternity, Noie continued in his loud gravely drawl, "Just like me". And then he punctuated it with a wide snaggletoothed grin. The rancher continued to stare for another short eternity and then he broke out laughing, grabbed Noie's hand and pumped it up and down, slapped him on the back and they instantly became the best of buddies.
How's that for an interesting allegory.
Tex
P. S. Jari, after so many years it no longer matters to me how good it might smell to others because to me it smells like poison, so I don't have any problem hanging around watching them eat their poison.
