IM here with added info on Kait

barbaranoela · Post by **barbaranoela** » Tue Feb 21, 2006 7:30 pm

I fought the battle but didnt win---mine
I am not FREED from all my worries---I am not up to taking on more challanges and this is why~~~

Surgery performed on Kait again---
Nothing successful---Lynn and Harter battleing @ every turn--she is telling him to look further---he is telling her he has other patients~~~
Now I know Lynn is always on top of this and she is demanding---rightfully so~~~~

They have no IDEA whats going on----and now there is concern of more surgery due to causing *brain damage*

I didnt want to post this but had advice and I am here--

We got another call from Lynn--- a few minutes ago----Kait seized for 20 minutes and Harter is going to put in a camera to monitor her during the night--
Lynn will not talk with him----She asks *what for*

So I have NOT FREED myself----Iam so very very upset and Lou is not looking to content--he is trying his best to tell her that she doesnt know MORE than the doctors---and if she is in another tiff--get the hell out of there and do something else--
What else can we do???
I am so depressed---I thought I could handle all this but it is eating my insides up--

And I really was afraid to post this issue again---only cus I felt that it would be *oh no,not again* thing---
I know U all care but I didnt want to be here all the time with this issue!!!

I have lost the end of the rope~~~~~
I cannot hold on anymore---

Barbara

annie oakley · Post by **annie oakley** » Tue Feb 21, 2006 7:45 pm

Barb....want to come and drink My wine with me?...I am sure sorry that Kait is having to go thru this. I nkow this isn't comforting...but God is watching Kait. I prayed last night that Angels would decend and put their wings around her and make her well. Love Oma

barbaranoela · Post by **barbaranoela** » Tue Feb 21, 2006 7:50 pm

Oma----would be my pleasure to have a bottle of booze--

I think of Shirleys quote---something like
God is never late----but he is also never early

And its going to take more than angels to straighten things out for Kait--
Thanks Oma---

barb

Post by **tex** » Tue Feb 21, 2006 8:02 pm

Barbara,

Thank you for posting that information, because if you don't post it, we don't realize that we need to offer you support. Please don't ever hesitate to post, any time you need support, or just need to get something off your chest. That's why we're here-- to help each other, no matter what happens.

Besides, you are not here all the time with that issue. Most of the time you are here offering support to others, and helping us all to feel better, and for that we are very grateful. We are honored to be able to offer you our support in return.

I hope the doctors figure out something soon.

We love you Barbara,
Wayne

Mars · Post by **Mars** » Tue Feb 21, 2006 8:09 pm

Hi Ya Barb,

I am glad you post the information about Kait. I agree with Tex, we don't know you need us if you don't post.

My heart is with you and aches with you and for you. I wish there was something that someone could do. I just don't know what to say - Me??? at a loss for words!???

All my love to you and your family and a big, big hug to you!

Love,
Mars

barbaranoela · Post by **barbaranoela** » Tue Feb 21, 2006 8:09 pm

Thank u SO very much my dear Wayne--

I am thankful that I have U all here to help me thru all this--

much luve, Barbara

Polly · Post by **Polly** » Tue Feb 21, 2006 8:11 pm

Oh Sis,

I can't say it any better than Wayne has. We love you and are here for you always. I hear your despair and would give anything to be able to make everything better.

:flyingdoveleft:

Love,

Polly

Peggy · Post by **Peggy** » Tue Feb 21, 2006 8:42 pm

Hey Cuz'n,

I'm with Wayne and everyone else on this.

If any "oh no, not again" thoughts ever entered this mind it's because I can't believe what's happening to dear, sweet Kait...not at all because you are here telling us. I HAVE to know. I want to hear the good, the bad, the ugly, and anything you need to tell us, anything that makes you feel better.

I'm sometimes at a loss for words, the whole thing is just so unbelievable. You can't expect to be able to handle this on your own, and you must know we're all here for you...at least I hope so?!?!

With much love,
Cuz'n Pippi

barbaranoela · Post by **barbaranoela** » Tue Feb 21, 2006 8:47 pm

thank U thank U---

U see, I thought I had gotten control and could roll with the punches---but I found out it passed me by~~~~~

Im trying-----
luve Barbara

starfire · Post by **starfire** » Tue Feb 21, 2006 9:24 pm

I agree with everyone else, Barbara. As Peg said, the only "oh no, not again" thoughts I've had is concerning the fact that Kait is still having to go through these things. Never that you are writing about them.

I just don't know - I just don't know - I just don't know - but OH, how I wish I did. How I wish SOMEBODY knew what what to do about all this.

Love You,
Shirley

Liz · Post by **Liz** » Wed Feb 22, 2006 1:56 am

Barb, the only time we would get upset with you would be if you didn't bring your heartaches here to us so that we can be some sort of support to you. What your family is going through & has had to deal with for so long is beyond understanding. It is just not fair that this should be & you have to cope with all the worry & heatbreak of it all. Especially when neither you or Lou are in perfect health yourselves. You feel free to post about your problems & rant & rave about Harter or anything else that takes your fancy. You can be sure that you will find a sympathetic ear here whenever you need it.

Lotsa love

:bigbighug:

Twinnie

MaggieRedwings · Post by **MaggieRedwings** » Wed Feb 22, 2006 6:31 am

Dear Barbara,

I can only echo what everyone else has said. You NEED to be here with us and we need to know. You are consistently comforting to everyone else and can always seem to lift our spirits so we need to be there for you in this horrible time.

May god hold Kait in the palm of HIS hand through this endless trauma.

We love you, Maggie

Alice · Post by **Alice** » Wed Feb 22, 2006 7:32 am

Hi Bubbs,

Prayers for you and Kait. I know you will find the strength to get through this.

Love,
Alice

CAMary · Post by **CAMary** » Wed Feb 22, 2006 11:10 am

Barbara, Dear-

I'm not sure what to say. Just know that your whole family is always in my prayers....you *will* get through this, I have faith!! Don't wonder so much about the "whys" - it is not a question easily answered and will only serve to frustrate you more...Take support from wherever you can get it during difficult times and never feel bad about coming here to blow off steam....

As for "H"??? One would think if a physician is stumped about what to do next, said physician would refer the patient to a colleague who is *willing* to continue to look for solutions. What a jackass!!

Lots of love,

Mary

JJ · Post by JJ » Wed Feb 22, 2006 2:40 pm

Hi Barb...I am with everybody else....We're glad to know what is going on so we can lend support....and....I feel so close to you and Kait even though I have never met either one of you in person....we are family!

Love and hugs...JJ