I am still in the brace---and tisnt too much fun--Darvon---Alleve--helps for a few hours---damn stuff is binding me up
--and then its the old trick of forcing NORMAN out---In other words its pills--pills and more pills--Mostly bed-rest--WITH the brace on all day---and I have TRIED to be a good patient but havent discovered that TRICK yet~~~~see doc. on the 11th---
Now---how I so wanted to be home for a wintery--snowy Christmas--but U know what???? I miss AZ.---I guess its mostly Doug that I am missing--and our apartment--- this was becoming our *home*
but stuff happens so @ least I can blame *stuff* that popped up and has not allowed me to go to AZ.I say to peoples this was all meant to happen---and they say * do U really believe that someone HIGHER had this section of your life planned??
Yup, I do---U all know how I BELIEVE in that---of course my friends here look @ me and laugh!!!
ignorant peoples!!!!All I do is cry and think of *times* back----
I luved Christmas---putting up the tree---the lights--the ornaments and then the splendor of hanging each piece of Tinsel strand by strand--then the windowstill--books piled in layers then covered with fake snow--then setting up the village--with all the lights--and the peoples---sometimes,if I sat there long enuf, I could almost feel as though I shunk up and was part of the christmas scene and passing by the bakery--the church--the homes---skating with the kids---singing carols by the lamp-post--and then Channel 11,I believe would start the burning YULE LOG and carols would be going all night---happy times and I cried then too!!!
God forbid anyone would brush pass the tinsel
--I would jump up and straighten that piece---Company to celebrate---family---which there is none left and thats very very sad--and the old neighborhood here--would go around caroling to all the houses---I just luved that---and thats ended too---but I must remember we did this waaaay back when the kids were still willing to join their parents --bundeling up==holding candles and singing like we belonged to the Lawrence Welk group--but how we really thrilled all the homes that we went to----
I guess being home,this year, isnt going to be as happy as I thought--
I dont think I like the holidays anymore---missing too many peoples---
Now that I have cheered everybody up
I guess I shall pop my pill and go to bed---IM SURE
has started on his journey for he has many places to stop-- 
to all---Memories---let the new day beginluve Barbara
PS. then I had to tune into the Celtic Women singing all Christmas Carols and I
but the uplifting news I then tuned into PBS---and watched the DOO WOP music---which made me smile---Good night/good morning---
past my face and right smack into the middle of the xmas tree. And right behind that blurr was a very large and clumsy bird dog 
that landed on the biege and dark brown blurr and they were going at it. 
There was tinsel and bulbs everywhere, light smashed, Biy was I in 
It took us all awhile but we got it all picked up, put back, replaced bulbs and separated cat and dog. That was also the year I got locked out of the house accidently in my jammies at midnight. Another story. Love Oma
